Sunday 9th June 2013

Been off all week to be honest I'm not having a brilliant time just loads of stuff getting in top of me I'm back up to 9st 3lbs and it's so depressing I'm so ill all the time I look pasty and fat I just want to feel motivated scrap that I just want to feel something I'm back at work next week and i've got a shit tonne of work to do :( I want to feel amazing and thin and people think wow instead of plain old boring Jane I don't know what's going on my head I can't seem to figure anything in my head or my life out my weight seems to be the one thing I can control but I have to push myself and body to the limit.   I will try and keep you updated as I have the app on my phone now so I have no reason for being slack I promise myself I will gym it at least there times this week no matter what sweat is the body getting rid of fat.I just need to be disciplined and focused.

Thursday 30th May 2013

Didn't manage to go gym yesterday shitty 1 hour lunch break so stressed and tired it's unbelievable argghh. Just have to keep going and carry on bleugggh! Any who here is something motivating :-)  

Tuesday 28th May 2013

Going to do another motivation post thing managed to tick off all the things on my to do list whoop start small then go hard :-) hehe gym tomorrow let's hope I don't die have been a bit slack recently :-(  time to crack on and sort my shit out! Did OK today alpen bar break fast then soup and a roll with two fritt bars and pasta for tea, two snacks under 100 calories. Will post tomorrow :-D Xx

Monday 27th May 2013

Back to work tomorrow feeling a bit crappy because I didn't do much for the bank holiday weekend. Working with Shri next week I really just want to get out of there :( , I need to sort my shit out and finish my college work off seems so daunting I surpose it will keep me from thinking about food and keep me occupied then once that's done hopefully I will have lost some weight and I can also do all the stuff I want to and focus on new hobbies. I started this at 10 stone I'm now 9 stone 2 pounds and keep fluctuating down 3 or 4 pounds. Ideally I want to get about 7 and a half or 7.5 stone but we'll see :/ would love to be at the lower end of the scale for once. 

Fuck this

Just wanna end it all I wake up I go to sleep day in day out when did life get so mundane apparently you've got to be some one for anyone to care and even then do you really think they actually care they have their own lives oh  and i'm hugggeee

Motivate yo'self

I'm currently 139lbs :(

FAAT PANNDA!

GW:108-110